Emilio Sparks - The Charlie Rose of Hip Hop

So for the non Catholic or people who don’t believe in Jesus here is the definition of lent. Lent leading up to Easter or in my case Wretlemaina, is a time of sacrifice for Jesus. It is a time to give up something like candy or smoking.

I dont recall the last time I went for ashes. I should so the process is legal binding, but I always give up something for lent. I think. It’s always something half ass like candy (not a big junk food eater) or Fap’n. (but would continue to have sex) One time I gave booze. Giving up drinking wasnt rough I’m not a big drinker. Not drinking was kind of good it opened my eyes to a few things. When I gave up drinking for Lent, I was dating someone who liked to have a beer just cause (I think mostly bordum) it made me realize all we did was hang out at bars.

But yea this Lent thing is suppose to be good for the soul or so I hear. Lately my spirits have been pretty shitty. Im just not my scumbino self. You ever have a period of time where your in a funk? As if you run in a constant circle, seeing no real change coming out of it? So you stew in self pity watch hours of TV and sleep late? I know it sounds rather glamorous in reality it’s wack juice. The funk makes you not want to do ANTHING.

Ive just been going through “IT”. We all go through “IT”, whatever your “IT” is, I know you can relate. Maybe its a combination of thinking too much and analyzing every minuet detail. Its always things I have no control in. As you get older you start to think about a lot of shit mostly the curve balls life throws at you. Lately I have said wow…This isnt how I thought life would go. Some make life and deciding choices look so easy. I often think ow is it so easy for some but difficult for others? I know all that glitters isnt gold, and everyone got their own problem. Some just have a better poker face.

Uncertainty is fucken scary…Shit it feels like my thoughts drown me in insecurities that never really existed. I think thats relatable? Were human we all have insecurities, sometimes they fuel us not to fail but sometimes they create depression. I guess this years lenten promise is just to leave all the cowboy bullshit at the door. I think there has to be a change in the mental. One being my finances. I cant have my money situation making me accustomed to living in misery.

Maybe I should promise Jesus ill slowly break out of this funk. I mean how can you break a promise to Jesus? Its Jesus. I assume Jesus is like Wilson from the TV Drama House M.D.

But yeah I know the internet needs some type of audio or visual to accompany over 300 words. Here is one of my favorite J-Live tracks kinda relates to the post above.